Gary Allan's Stalker Drama

For anyone who actually knows me, you may find this a bit comical, and some of you may wonder if I were the one doing the stalking. I have many a friend and family member make jokes about me stalking Gary Allan. Funny as it is to laugh about such things, this is a serious matter. Gary has been stalked by a crazed fan for around 4 years now, and hopefully, his nightmare is coming to an end. I don't know the details surrounding the case, but it has to be a scary, mentally and emotionally exhausting thing to deal with. As big a fan as I am, I'd never revert to stalking, and certainly not burglary and vandalism. In my book, that's really no way to show your adoration.





A Nashville-area woman arrested for stalking country star Gary Allan will appear in court Wednesday (May 27) in Gallatin, Tenn., for a hearing on charges of burglary, vandalism and stalking. Allan is scheduled to appear during the hearing at the Sumner County Courthouse. Police arrested Katherine Walker following a May 2 incident at Allan's home in Hendersonville, Tenn. His attorney, Bill Ramsey, is expected to present testimony and evidence related to stalking incidents that have taken place during the past four years.

Danny Gokey starting a new chapter

Last night, as I watched American Idol, I was on pins and needles. Ryan Secrest kept faking everyone out, waiting until the very end to reveal the top seats for the finale. When he called Kris Allen's name first, I believe I stopped breathing for a moment. Could it be? Was Adam Lambert actually gone? For the life of me, I couldn't, wouldn't believe that Danny was gone. The man had never been in the bottom 3. Unfortunately, I was wrong. Danny Gokey, my pick to win since his audition, was voted off. I was sad, but not necessarily because his journey to win the title was over. I was sad that I want see his smiling face next week. I cried for his journey he made to get there, all the heartache and happiness he's been through the past 11 months. Danny Gokey is a genuinely kind soul, and no one can deny that. Maybe Danny didn't win the crown, but he's still my idol.

Could I Be...

As I sit here at my desk, I contemplate the one question I've asked myself every month for two years now: Could I be pregnant? This is no new journey for me in the sense that I was pregnant with Nicole 10 years ago. It is new territory in that with Nicole, I wasn't anticipating pregnancy. With Nicole, I wasn't even expecting it. I was 19 and thought I had years before I would even consider it. Now here I am 10 years later, and I crave pregnancy. I want to take the test and see two lines. I want to have my doctor confirm it with a big bright smile, and say, " You're pregnant!" I want to surprise my husband Josh and Nicole by letting them unwrap a gift box containing a onesie. I want to have the expanding belly, the gigantic boobs, the wonderful pregnancy glow. I want to have that magical, powerful feeling that only a conception can bring. I want to experience all the things I did 10 years ago, but I want to share it with Nicole and Josh. I want them to know the joy I felt. I want Nicole to know what her mama is like when she's pregnant. I want Josh to know what it feels like to have a biological child. I want to teach a little one all the things I taught my first born. I want to hold a baby, my baby, once again.

I'm Walking For Babies!

This past Friday, I had an opportunity arise that I felt compelled to take advantage of. On May 3rd, I will be participating in the March of Dimes Walk in Chattanooga, TN. This will be the first charity walk I've ever done, and I feel really good about it. I'm in the process of raising money for the cause, and I hope to raise at least $200. If you're interested in donating, check out the link below:

http://www.marchforbabies.org/gapeach79

You can donate from this page, as well as check out my page and the other members of my team, The Chattanooga Cherries! Also, if you'd like to come out and give us some moral support, we'd appreciate that too!

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I'm not sure what I really feel like writing about today, I just feel like writing. It's Monday. and Mondays are always such a strain for me. I never want to get up. Of course, Iwas up until Midnight, and woke up a few times throughout the night. that may have had something to do with the sweet tea and candy I had before going to sleep. What can I say, I have a sweet tooth, and it usually strikes at night.

Josh and I spent all weekend being lazy. I didn't even get out of my pjs Saturday until about 7 pm. We watched Ultimate Fighter all day Saturday. Pretty fun. I like watching how all these guys live together, then fight each other. Or how there's a few who talk smack about each other, fight, then say how much respect thet have for the other one. It's pretty funny.

Yesterday, we watched CSI: Miami for most of the day and night. The acting isn't that great, but I am a sucker for the storylines. I like trying to figure out what's going on and who done it. I'm pretty good at it, better than Josh anyway. What's funny is that Nicole has a pretty good grasp of what's going on most of the time too. That's quite impressive for a 9 year old.

Anyway, I'm tired, and I still have about 2 hours of work left, then a ball game. If I can get out of here in time, I can go home and take a 30 minute nap, or at least veg out on the sofa for 30 minutes. You guys have fun...

Baby Fever

My sister is pregnant with her second child. She's having a little boy, due in June. My friends Melissa and Bill are expecting a little girl. I believe she's due in June as well. I am so happy and excited for them both, but I must confess: I WANT A BABY!!!!

Anyone that knows me knows this isn't new. I've been ranting and raving about it for some time now. The things is, for a few months, I'll want a baby, then I'll change my mind. I think about how wonderful it would be to give Josh a son or daughter, and Nicole a brother or sister. I think about how I enjoyed being pregnant with Nicole 10 years ago, and how healthy I was then. I remember all the attention I would get, everyone making a fuss over my expanding belly. It was magical.

Then I think about all the stuff I could do if I were pregnant, or had a baby. No more modeling, no theme park rides, no bikini shopping, no more feeling like a young mother. I'd be the woman with a 10 year old and a newborn. Some people would call that crazy.

I had a dream Saturday night about me being pregnant. Melissa was in the dream too. Then Sunday night, I had a dream about Melissa and my sister Felisha. Is it that I'm just so obsessed about being pregnant that I have baby fever, resulting in such dreams?

I was 19 when I became pregnant with Nicole. I didn't know then how precious that time is. Now that I'm 29, and having trouble getting pregnant, I feel like I may have taken it for granted. There's a chance I'll never physically have another baby again. To realize that breaks my heart. The one thing I wasn't ready to do at 19 I want to do at 29. Go Figure.

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